I love my Dad.

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Comment by susan Paull 20 hours ago

For me, I am reminded of the season in some way, for example, A sign in the market about ordering your turkey. I stop and think, "Why didn't they take that sign down. The holidays are over... Oh, wait Christmas hasn't happened yet!" The spirit is not in me. It's as though the family rallied to have a Thanksgiving meal with Papa and without him I don't feel like celebrating.

Comment by Diana Young on December 8, 2009 at 7:46pm

@katherine ellis yes, this time of year is hard. I always count on my brother or husband to put up the tree because I just don't feel like it. I know I shouldn't feel that way, especially since I have a 12 year old that lives for Christmas. Just another day to me. Shame on me I guess.

Comment by Katherine Ellis on December 8, 2009 at 6:24pm

"That" time of year is upon us. The big holiday. It's so hard to put up the tree, go shopping, bake the cookies and be happy. When what we really want is just to crawl in bed and hide until it's over. I pray for all of us that we find the strenght to get though it and find a moment of peace. God Bless you.

Comment by Samantha Williams on December 4, 2009 at 6:09pm

Dear Daisy,
I'm really sorry to hear about how rough of a time you are having. Sept 30th was my first birthday without hearing from my dad, then his birthday was Nov 9th, then the first anniversary of his death was Dec1st. I know how rough it is. Instead of sitting at home and being depressed, I decided to do something fun each of those days. I took the days off of work and went miniature golfing, or to an arcade, anything to feel like a kid again just for a little while. It helped me stay distracted and took my mind off of it. Maybe it could do the same for you. Best wishes.

Comment by Cindy Giron on November 23, 2009 at 3:13pm

Dear Daisy,
I'm sorry you had such a rough birthday. It seems like any kind of holiday or day that use to be for celebrating is now just a reminder to me that someone is missing, my dad. It has been 5 months since I lost my dad and I keep waiting for it to get easier.

Comment by Daisy Quinones on November 20, 2009 at 3:23pm

Oh God, this is the worst day. Is my first birthday without a phone call from my father. I know other family members and
friends have email me and called me. But I miss my Papi so bad. Right now I'm just sitting here wearing one of his favorites
shirts and crying, crying like a baby. I cant stop.....the pain is horrible. Cant understand this, it's been 4 months and the pain is still so bad.....
I don't know what everybody feels but it seems to me like my other siblings are doing much better than me.
What is wrong with me? I just want to hide and not see or talk to anybody.
And my husband seems to be losing patience with me. Cant say I blame him.

Comment by HBB on November 14, 2009 at 11:37pm

Dear Becky,
It sounds like seeing his name on the marker might make you realize that he reallly is not coming back, that your relationship with him on this earth in a physical form is over and you will not see him again in this way. Hopefully, over time you will connect with him in other ways and this will comfort you. My dad's birthday was today and I hope he is doing well wherever he is. I never thought I would stop crying or be able to say that but I have been able to let go a bit. I am making a scrapbook about him, and I think this will help. Maybe you would like to do this. I went to a meetup group where people sit around and scrapbook, which helped to motivate me to begin the work. Just go to www.meetups.com and look in your area for this or any other interest you have. Take good care of yourself in the process.

Comment by Becky Redmon on November 11, 2009 at 7:17pm

Tomorrow I am going to pick up my dad's engraved marker. His birthday was this past Halloween. My siblings, my son and I were going to put him where he grew on his farm, but we decided against it because of the uncertainty of the future of the land. So we put him next to granny and grandpop. This was the most saddest event. We should have been talking to him and giving him his presents, instead we dug a hole and put his remains along with poems, my sister made a heart necklace(my heart bleeds for you, popie.) We covered it up and then put a bronze statue of a little boy holding a bird. Tomorrow I pick up the marker with his name and his nickname, Popie. (I wrote it Papie). I will break down because we are used to seeing his name on his letters signed in pen. This time it is on a marker.
Please help me to understand all of this. I'm about to tear up right now thinking about this.

Comment by Brenda Paradis on November 11, 2009 at 6:28pm

Bad few days here. My Dad's gravestone was set at the cemetary and it was so hard to be there and see it. Not looking forward to our first holiday's without him. It will be tough.....

Comment by Daisy Quinones on November 10, 2009 at 8:40pm

My Papi also died suddenly. In July 10 2009. And I still cant believe it. Just last week I was going to call him to talk about the Yankees winning. I forget he is gone. This is the worst thing, to know that I will never see him again. Today I had a really bad day . I cried a lot. I feel really bad. So finally today I went to the doctor. I don't sleep, get confused easy, my mind is like in a fog. And yes with the holidays coming is going to be horrible. Even my birthday, its coming soon, and my dad always remembered it. He had 6 children and he always said I was the only one that he remembered the birth date because I'm the oldest.
I don't know how it's going to be without his phone call....
Well I thank everybody for listening.

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